Crimes against clients...
Today's HFC challenge is about sharing an experience you had with a treatment professional that negatively impacted your recovery. As this day has neared, and I knew I was going to have to write about this, I was dreading it. Because you know what? I don't want to write about this. This is perhaps the only prompt, out of all the 31 days of this HFC challenge, that I don't agree with. And that's just what I think personally - no judgement.
It just doesn't sit well with me. Sure, I could regale you all with tales about MD's and therapists and even dieticians who have upset me or hindered my recovery is some way. I could do all that, but for some reason...it just doesn't feel right to. I don't want to speak badly about them, because even though they hurt me, I don't want to believe that they intended to hurt me.
I came across this picture the other day, and it practically screamed at me. It's kind of my new mantra, not just for the sole use of today's blog, but to use in all other areas of my life, as well:
I adore my current treatment team because they are tough. They don't let me get away with jack crap. And, I was a seasoned anorexic. I knew all the tricks; all the ways that I could get around weight gain. But they knew the tricks too, and they flushed them out, and were like, "NOW WHAT?!" And I shuffled my feet and was like, Damn. Guess it's time to recover. :)
They listen to me, they laugh with me, and I really and truly believe that they care about me, that I'm not just something that helps them pay the bills (and trust me, what I pay my therapist every month is enough for her to freakin put a pool in her backyard).
I have gone through a lot of treatment teams, and I never really cared about them - at least, didn't care enough to actually do what they said, so I could keep seeing them. I might as well have flipped them the bird and said PEACE. I just didn't care.
But I care with this team - sometimes, much to my dismay - and because I care about them, and I know they care about me, I actually do what they say, and hey! What do you know? I'm actually recovering!
So there it is. I know this isn't what the HFC prompt was all about today, but I couldn't really just be okay with doing it today. "Promote what you love, instead of bashing what you hate." That just really resonates with me, and I've made it my mission to carry that in all aspects of my life. I hope you'll bear with me for doing something different with this post today.