Today's HFC topic is writer's choice. I didn't know what to write about; was having a hard time coming up with a topic. But I'm in a really good mood today, (perhaps due in part to the emotional outpouring from yesterday's post - sometimes you just need a good mental purge) and I really wanted to celebrate, today, the simple things, the little victories. So I give you:
Today's little victories:
I woke up this morning, and the mantra "I'm going to eat today" was not a question, but a statement.
I put on today's outift, and instead of scrutinizing myself, or changing my outift 3847 times, I just thought, Okay. I look nice. :) No judgement, no picking it apart, nothing.
I woke up today feeling great. I am healthy. I am strong. Since I have been weight restored, I haven't had to go to the hospital ONCE for lung-related issues. This is HUGE for me. GIGANTIC. When I was restricting and underweight, my lungs were severely compromised, and I was always needing medical intervention. And, because my lungs were only functioning at 40%, I was so TIRED. I was lethargic, listless, and had no energy to play with my kids. Today I can chase Cade around the house and swing Mila around in the air. These things seem so small, so menial, but I don't take them for granted, as not long ago, I couldn't do these things.
I went out to lunch with a good friend. (Biscuits.) I was able to eat lunch with her with no eating disorder thoughts creeping up, making me worry about my food. And not only did I order a pizza - but I ordered a SIDE OF FRIES. Might as well have ordered a SIDE OF HAPPINESS. Heaven! (The food and the company. :)
I am smiling. :D
And that's enough. It's perfectly enough. And the day isn't even halfway over!
Photo - Mommy and MJ, very happy in their spring outfits today.