Friday, March 12, 2010

Just what I needed, today

This morning, I got this text from my mom:

"The only way to take sorrow out of death is to take love out of life."  --Longfellow
...Aren't you glad you had the opportunity to love her?

Yes.  Yes, I am glad.  I love you Kendall.  And I am indeed sorrowful over your death, because Mama misses you.  But I am grateful, above all, that I got to know you and love you and take care of you for the short time I was blessed to have you in my life.  Hope you are having a good day up in Heaven, baby girl.

12 comments:

Eating Alone said...

Damn that's a good quote. My eating disorder tried so hard to take the love out of my life (and did for so long) I'm glad you can still love.

Arn't mom's the best?

Carrie Arnold said...

That's a beautiful quote. I'm glad you got to love Kendall, and wish you didn't have to have said goodbye so soon.

kristin said...

Great quote. Kendall will never be forgotten.

Cammy said...

Not only have you had the chance to love her, but your skills in writing and reaching out have opened up the opportunity for us to love her too. You are an amazing mother. <3

standing in the rain said...

Thinking of you and Kendall today. I bet it's a beautiful day in heaven (aren't they ALL? and how wonderful is that for her?)!

dietcolagirl said...

your mom is such a sweetheart. Hope the day is treating you ok.

Heather Lindquist said...

This brought tears to my eyes. You have a very wise mother. The quote also deeply impacted me, as I'm especially missing my own mother right now as the anniversary of her death is tomorrow. My mom's death brought so much sorrow, that's for sure, but I wouldn't trade it for all the love we experienced in our lives together. It's so much better (though not easy) to have loved someone so, so deeply, and to have lost them, than to have never even known and experienced love towards them at all. Like you,I am grateful for the chance to have had a mom like I did. It hurts more than words can even say that she's no longer here, but I still "feel" her presence with me pretty much every day. I hope the same for you. That you too will feel and know Kendall's love for you each morning you wake, and each evening you lay down to sleep. Are you still writing letters to her? When you mentioned doing that, months ago, I thought how special that was. I hope you continue to do that, as I'm sure much healing can come through it. I began writing letters to my mom, shortly after she died. I still do, now and then, especially around times like this weekend. It's an awful feeling to be engulfed in sorrow...but I do believe it's even more horrible to be one who has never experienced love to and with a child (unborn or not), and to and with a mother. Thanks Penny for the quote you gave Brie. It has helped me a great deal as I too mourn the loss of a loved one. You're in my prayers Brie, as always, and I'll be thinking of you this weekend especially, knowing that I too can be strong when facing sorrow, as you have shown me, that albeit harder than hard, you are doing it too.

now.is.now said...

What a beautiful quote. I'm sure Kendall knows you love her, Brie, because it is so frequently and eloquently expressed. I can even feel your love for her across the states and through the computer screen.

tracy said...

Blessings to you and sweet Kendall Penny.

Arielle Bair (Becker) said...

What a great mom you have. And what a great mom you are.

Forbidden Regrets said...

I can feel it. Right now I can feel it. On the couch behind me is Evil Personality. My hands are shaking. My face is starting to burn, my mind is starting to clench, my heart is going to stop. I can feel the tears swell up and drip slowly down my soft face. I'm surprised I’m still writing. You are about to observe what it is like for me to talk to evil personality....

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