Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Hi, hey, hi.

Hi, sigh. Friends.

I’m not really sure what’s going on with me. I’ve been debating on taking a blogging break for no other reason than I feel so…uninspired.
I do not feel funny.
I do not feel inspirational.
In fact I barely feel like a writer.

I miss you guys.

So keep your thoughts and prayers with me during this time…one week from today, Kendall would have been born.
Thinking about her a lot lately.
Miss her.
Would like to memorialize her in some small way on The Day, but not sure what to do. Any ideas?

And in the meantime
My BFF Steph has done you all an ultimate favor by making her blog public.
You may scarf some blogalisciousness and rejoice in it. Tis quite amazing.
Love you all.


Cammy said...

Hi Brie. I'm sure you have a lot on your mind around this time of year, and you don't need to offer any excuses to take some you time. Remember that we enjoy your posts, but CARE about you, so what's best for you is what makes your fans happy. :)

As for memorializing Kendall, is there some charity you could donate to in honor of her? Maybe even one of those that let you buy a brick or something in someone's name, and you could use hers? Just an idea. You, Kendall, and the rest of your family are definitely on my mind and in my heart, please take care and treat yourself kindly. You know how to find me, NEVER hesitate if you need to talk about something, or if you don't really have anything to talk about but just need to connect.

Will said...

Tulips always make me happy...and remind me of Spring and growth/newness. Maybe having tulips around will make you happy. You could write a note, put it in a ballon and send it off. I'm sure it will be a very difficult day of what might have been but you can still celebrate her day!

Alyssa said...

i'm not so good at this type of thing. and i have never been in the situation. but here are a couple of ideas you can consider.
1. those cute mom necklaces that have the childrens birthstones on them. (they even have rings)
2. you could name a star after her. a little bit of a strange idea but kind of cute in my book
3. make a scrap book of her life even though it was short i am sure you can find a million things that atleast remind you of her. then maybe on the anniversary of her birthday you can write a letter to her and put it in there of what you would want to say to her.

i hope this helps.

Stephanie said...

I still find you inspiring.. Perhaps thats why we're twins.. and I wish I had some fitting memorializing ideas, ones that I may one day decide to brave. I think that asking for ideas is a great idea AND I was wondering if there was anything YOU wanted to do for Kendall. However small or not, you as her mother might actually know best how to celebrate her life and mourn her loss next week.
Whatever you decide to do, dis twin will show, if you want her to.
*Ken and Kendall dancing*

now.is.now said...

Brie, if you never wrote another "funny" post again, I would still read. I don't read because of your writing style - I read because I care about you. Do what is best for you and take a break for as long as you truly want.

ksgirl said...

How about going somewhere special and releasing a balloon with her name tied to it? Seems so simple but I get choked up just thinking about it.

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Maeve said...

Brie, I can understand the desire to take a break from blogging, but even if you do I will check daily for a new post. I don't want to pressure you, but I do want you to know that I love every single post you write.

What about having a commemorative dinner for Kendall (either just Big B, Cade and you or more of your family) and then planting a tree in her honour? You could even get a plaque made.

I will be thinking of you and keeping you and your family in my prayers.

wendyorozco said...

we miss you too! i am praying for you.

Alexandra Rising said...

Sending so much love your way.
Wish I had an idea for little Kendall but Im sure whatever you do, it will be just right.
Love and happy thoughts <3 Al

Alexandra Rising said...

PS Thanks bff-Steph :)

Dianne said...

I am usually uninspired and not very funny and not inspirational, even on a good day, but I don't let that stop me. Obviously. :>) Hang in there Peanut.

I think it would be fitting to plant something extraordinarily beautiful at your folks' house and watch it grow over the years. Maybe a gorgeous lilac or a camellia or another favorite. It could remind you of that beautiful gift that is your daughter.


tracy said...

Dear Brie,

Sending loving thoughts to you.

i loke the balloon and tree ideas. Also the jewelery.

The balloon makes me think of that scene from ER when the daughter releases a balloon to the new tune of "Somewhere Over the Rainbow". (i still get kinda choked up when i hear that version of the song...dunb, i know.)

Blessings to you,

Stephanie said...

Tracy, Definitely NOT DUMB..I also always make the balloon-ER connection. Those few episodes before the loss of Dr. Greene were so intense. So good. So sad. Man I loved that show.. Anyway.. back to reality... Some of these suggestions are really good B. After Kendall's day next Tues, we should have a Bestie moment with balloons for our loved ones.
AlexRising- your welcome??? not sure what I did... but.. thanks for the thanks.. ;)

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Alexandra Rising said...

Steff- Thanked you in regard to Brie's little shoutout to your blog ;)

brie said...

thank you all for your love, support, and ideas. more to come.


t. said...

i'll miss your blogging, but it sounds like you need to take time for yourself. i saw some beautiful photographs of names in the sand on the beach to memorialize lost babies. here is a link to see what i'm talking about:


i'm not sure if there is any place near you where you could do something similar, but i thought i'd throw out that idea.

take care of yourself, brie!

tracy said...

Thanks, Stephanie. :)

Misty said...

The only consolation I can give you is that April 6th ultimately is a beautiful day because it's the day that Jesus was resurrected. Kendall is alive now...because of Him, as is my little Jace. We WILL be with them again. Hang in there girl!