This'll be short today, friends.
Not having a very good day.
It's one of THOSE days.
Had myself a good long cry this morning.
And this afternoon.
Thankfully my mom is coming to my rescue and is going to watch the kiddos for me.
So I can have a long nap with my kitties and heating blanket
and ear plugs, of course.
Woke up to a crappy email in my inbox.
Tried to reach out to someone who shafted me.
Worried about someone I love. Well worried about someoneS I love. So many hurting.
Still figuring out how to manage this terrible anxiety without benzos.
Still want benzos, and wish I didn't.
I'm so tired.
Sometimes I don't know how to be "not okay" gracefully.
I seem to make a mess of it.
Today is just one of those days.
I'll get over it.
I'll be okay.
But I think, right now, I just need to be not okay.
Even if I'm not very graceful about it.
Even if I make a mess of it.
Even if I seem to disappoint people, which I seem to be doing so much these days.
Even, even, even.