Friday, January 13, 2012

Middle of the Night Ramblings

It's the middle of the night (6 am qualifies as the middle of the night for me) and I am awake.  I've been awake for a couple hours actually, and I think I just have too much on my mind to fall asleep.  Maybe barfing it all on my blog will help me catch a few more zzzz's before I have to wake up and start my day.


Group last night was really interesting.  I'm glad I went, though it wasn't a particularly easy group to get through.   I think I'm pretty sure I'm leaning toward staying.  My group gals were great at giving me some insight and helping me figure out why I want to quit, and I think I worked through some of that, so I'm hoping that from here on out things will get better and easier.  I'm making a commitment to myself to engage more actively in group and to speak up and participate more.  I think doing that, in and of itself, will help tremendously.  So we'll see.


We're leaving for Bear Lake today around noon, just after I get done with therapy.  I did get some packing done last night (thank goodness, right?) but I still have quite a bit that I need to get done.  We're only going to be gone for 3 days and 2 nights, yet I have to pack like I'm a freakin' pioneer and like I'm never coming home again.  Do you know how much luggage is required for a 5 month old baby???  I mean, there's the clothes, and then the extra clothes in case she pees (or poops) through her outfit, then there's the diapers, bottles, wipes, formula, not to mention her portable crib and her play gym and her doorway jumper.  Then Brandon is packing a huge computer screen thingy for Cade to watch movies on, I'm bringing 100 bucks worth of pure, unadulterated, JUNK FOOD, not to mention Cade's toys and clothes, and then, to top it all off, we have to pack for us, and winter clothes so we can play in the snow by the lake.  Also, do you know how many electronics we're packing?  Heaven forbid I go without my iPad for 3 days (but I won't do it so don't make me you can't make me I'm bringing it).  Phew.  I don't even want to THINK of how much it's going to suck to have to unpack all this crap.  Suck.


Well, not much more tired now than I was when I started this blog.  Guess I'll whip out the old SVU re-runs, that's always good for a yawn.  Have a great weekend guys, I don't think I'll be blogging, but I'll be around via Facebook, so if you need to get in touch with me, that's probably the best way to do it.  I have my cell phone, but the service is notoriously bad at the cabin, so that may not be all that reliable.  Have fun at home, bitches, while I'm off frolicking at the Lake that is Bear!

3 comments:

Angela said...

I'm glad that you talked to some of the group members about leaving, and that you are going to try speaking out more. It is great to have supportive people around you! Enjoy your trip:)

Angela said...

I'm glad that you talked to some of the group members about leaving, and that you are going to try speaking out more. It is great to have supportive people around you! Enjoy your trip:)

THE CREATION OF A BEAUTIFUL LIFE said...

Yikes. The nice comment about me went away. I didn't see that one coming. Sorry If I upset you. That wasn't my intent.

Take care,