I'm kind of in a grouchy mood about my blog lately. I have made a tremendous effort over the past couple years to move away from talking about the ED so much, and focus more on family stuff or stuff about me discovering more about myself free from the ED.
And of course I write on Blogxygen because I want to, but anyone who blogs and says they don't care if they get comments on their posts or not is lying. EVERYONE likes to get comments, to hear from people. Two, three years ago, I averaged 30 comments a blog post. Now I average...what? 3? Maybe 5? It's just a shame that people responded more to Sick Brie, rather than Healthy Brie. Doesn't make it any easier to get better. And, it kinda makes me mad.
Not sure I'm going to post much for the next little bit. I might need a break. Because OF COURSE I'm going to continue on my road to recovery, despite what my readers say (or in this case DON'T say) but I guess I just need to be sad and a little mad that being sick is given more attention than getting better. I'm going to seriously consider going private, and maybe only allow people who are invested in me getting better read.
My life is SO public. I am having serious reservations about this, especially lately. I don't like feeling like people read this blog to hear about ED stuff, but I think that's a lot of what is happening. And I KNOW this isn't what is happening with all my readers, so to those who have emailed or commented and let me know that, I really appreciate it. It means a lot.
I guess I have a lot of thinking to do.