Hell to the O!

Good morning my fun little pretties! Do you likes my hair? I colored it just a bit darker. My hair got so lightened by the sun this summer and I was like NOT COOL so I went back to being a bit darker. I like it when I’m wearing makeup but in the morning when I look all gross and pale and pre-presentable it kind of makes me look like a vampire, but not the traditionally hot and svelte ones. (Edward would definitely think I was a LOSER.) Sigh I guess I can’t have everything.

This week has SUCKED. ER visit Monday, then back in the instacare on Tuesday for an ear infection. Even now, my ear is plugged and ringing pretty loudly and I think my listening skills are a little sub-par because I get distracted when people are talking to me wondering if the ringing in my ear is in fact so loud that they might also hear it?? So it’s been lame. But I haven’t worked all week which is kind of nice. (I’m back to work today for a full EIGHT HOURS and holy oh my moly how do you full-times do it??) Yesterday I was able to spend all day with Cade, and we had a blast, minus the time he wanted a toy (well, three) and I didn’t want to buy all three and that didn’t really go over well. But we played at the park and he so eloquently bequeathed me with maybe the best compliment I’ve gotten in a really long time. He said, “Mommy, I love you billions. You’re the queen of the world!” And that just made me smile and smile.

Yesterday I got another ultrasound and got to see the little bald and amorphous tike. It was so wonderful because the baby was kicking and bouncing around my uterus and never once stopped moving. It made me happy to see it so active. It’s teeeeeny little arms and legs were waving around and I’d like to think I have the smartest fetus in the world and it knew I was taking a gander at it and was waving at Mama and telling her to keep eating, keep being strong. So after that I totally wanted to go to IHOP and eat a big ‘ol breakfast, and well I didn’t, but I did eat a good breakfast, just not IHOP style. But still it was good! But it was so gratifying and relieving to see Baby, and in a few short weeks I’ll be able to know if it’s packing girl or boy genitalia, and then I’ll be able to buy clothes and sew blankies (the bad-ass seamstress in me is like DESPERATE to get out) and narrow down names and just generally get even more excited. I’m also approaching the end of the first trimester mark (a few more days) and BOY am I excited. The second trimester is by far the best because I’m not quite so pukey and hormonal but I’m also not yet super big and fat and so I remain pretty equable. Once the third trimester hits I’m like Momasaurus Rex (and about as big as that too) and it’s like GET OUT OF MY WAY BECAUSE I WILL EAT YOU. So hopefully there are some good times ahead…for the next 13 weeks, at least.

Well, all of you are freaking fabulous. Er, at least the 34 of you that commented on my blatantly needing support blog. Seriously, that was awesome. I read the comments really slowly, spread out over a few days, cuz I was sick, but every time I read one I thought damn, I have the best readers in the world. And what’s INSANE is that the vast majority of you…I don’t even know you, have ever met you, or have had a real conversation with you. But still, you stopped by, and took time to remind me that Ed sucks and life rocks and offer your own unique ideas and ways to support me. You are da raddest.

So basically here’s the ED update: I GUESS I’m still in denial but I’ve decided to shut my pie-hole about it (This is ironic. Think about it.) and just follow my meal-plan exactly. And, really, I don’t have much of a choice because if I don’t, (even if I miss like one grain!) I’ll have to go to el hospitalo which would sucko, so that’s pretty good motivation. So onward!

I’m going to go catch up on blogs now. LOVE YOU.