Sunday, December 2, 2007

No Tale Tells All

I keep my posts vague. On purpose.
I am extremely uncomfortable with the idea of any one person knowing too much about me.
Two years ago I burnt every single journal I had ever written.
I was so disquieted by the idea of being remembered.
After I'm dead, I want to have never existed.
I want people to think that perhaps I was a figment of their imagination, a fleeting moment of deja vu whispering in their memories.
You see, nothing I have ever done is worth remembering.
And it is my insignficance in this world that frightens me, devastates me.
And
already I feel as if in this post, I am revealing too much.
It scares me. So
I must go.

7 comments:

Whit said...

Brie,

It makes me really sad that you don't think you have done anything significant. You have touched so many peoples lives and I know that you have probably saved mine a couple times. You are an amazing person and I hope that one day you will be able to see that. I encourage you to keep revealing a little bit more every time you write. People would love to know exactly what is going on in that mind of yours.

Love Always,

Whit

KC said...

to know more of you. I think you're a beautiful person.

Tanya said...

Brie,

I think that you have been a great part of many people's life, You are a very talented and caring person. I want to say thank you for sharing this little bit. Thank you for challenging that part of you that needs to be forgotten. It is my hope for you that one day you can see how wonderful you really are.

Love Always,
Tanya

alana said...

babes,
you are SUCH a blessing in my life and i am so grateful to be a part of yours. whether you like it or not, you have already done miraculous things in your life and will only continue to do so- its just in your nature. you are a spectacular friend, wonderful wife, fantastic sister- and every breath cade takes is a testament to what an incredible mom you are. those are all things that have less to do with what you've done, and everything to do with who you ARE. if you need me to keep reminding you of how wonderful you are, i'll be happy to do it- hopefully one day it will stick...
thanks for being my sis!
i luuurrrrvvveeee you!

brydelle said...

Oh, Brie. I think I know how you feel. Whenever I write and I feel like I'm saying to much, I often just say the same stuff I'm feeling, but I make a character of mine feel it instead. Does that make sense? Anyway, I think you are a beautiful, good, right person, and you can't know how much you've done to help me. I could try to list it here but I think there might be a word limit on these comments. Hang in there--the good will cycle back.

Love, Marissa

Savannah said...

You are such an amazing person, and there is absolutely no way that you are insignificant. You are a remarkable mother, wife, daughter, sister, friend, etc. You make a difference without even realizing it. We are all blessed to call you our friend. I love you hun.

Kimberly Achelis Hoggan said...

Boo! You rock lady! Ill make sure to write about you in my journal (all good things) So you will be remembered hehe xox kim