Monday, June 4, 2012

Some Time


I am so burned out.  I feel like I have nothing to give, either physically or emotionally.  I have had a killer headache ever since I have been home from Mexico.  And while I'm not entirely familiar with migraines, because I really don't get them that often; this, I think, would qualify as one of them.  It doesn't matter how much Advil or Tylenol I take...caffeine doesn't help, lying in a dark room doesn't help...drinking water doesn't help...oh and dry-heaving at 3 am isn't the funnest either.  :(

Photo - first pics taken with the kids once home from Mexico.  We were just leaving to go to Grandma and Grandpa Sudweeks' 60th wedding anniversary party.

I'm miserable - though, this morning, I do feel a bit better - at least like I can function.  Brandon has been shouldering most of the parenting responsibilites this past weekend because I felt so unwell.  But, today it's time to put on my parenting boots and get goin.  Needs to be done, and I am excited to get back to the regular routine with the kiddos.

I will admit that I am really sad that I am not doing the June blogging challenge.  I really wanted to.  But, I think the challenge from May burned me out - I didn't even finish it because I was in Mexico, and I have no mental stamina left to finish it now.

I feel like I have nothing to offer you guys, which is another reason I don't think I'll participate in the challenge.  I feel vulnerable and completely exhausted.  Right now I don't feel excited about blogging or being silly or making you guys laugh.  Normally that type of stuff makes me so happy and is what fuels me.  So I don't know what gives.

I have a lot on my mind.  House stuff, worrying about financial stuff, I have to get a PT job and am picking up freelance writing work, recovery stuff is insanely hard right now...

I guess it's just as simple as Life is happening right now, and I kind of need to spend some time juggling all that, before I really delve back into my blogging.

I'll definitely be around, blogging here and there, but you may not get a post from me every day. I'm just so tired.  So bone tired.

Need a bit of time.


Ashleigh Furlong said...

I think that it is time to come out of the stalker closet and comment!
Bree, everytime I see that you have added a new post I get this huge smile on my face, not just because you are funny and insightful, but because you are honest. Your readers love your blog because they get to see BREE, not some fake, "my life is always perfect" Bree. Life can be pretty crappy and juggling recovery with life is 100 times harder.
Your readers (even the lurkers like me) want you to do what YOU need to do in order to be the happy, optimistic and funny Bree which we all know and love. If that means less posts, so be it, we will be waiting for you! (Although we may need the occasional titbit to keep us going! :) )

Liz said...

I'm sorry things are rough right now. I do understand needing some time though, hopefully that will help and everything will be back to normal in no time. Feel better and good luck finding a job.

Tylaine said...

Brie if you need a break, take a break! You gotta prioritize things in your life and do what's most important. taking care of you and your family and sometimes that means putting "extras" on the shelf for a while. Don't feel bad for not being able to do everything you want to, I don't think there's a woman out there who can. Just do what You need to for YOU!

Lou said...

Good on you for doing what you need to do for you! Hope you feel better soon :)

Arielle Bair (Becker) said...

Take a break when a break is needed, lady! You know I'd never mind that you decided not to do the blogger challenge. Will your thoughts be missed in the internet void out there? Sure! But we all love ya no matter what and seriously - YOU are much more important than a blog challenge... or any blog for that matter, even your own. :-) Just adding some reassurance here. Okay? Okay! Good? Good!

brie said...

thanks for the love and understanding. it really helps me so much. these comments meant a lot to me, especially today.


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