Yesterday, ho hum.
Went to work, and then picked up my baby boy from the sitter.
Wandered up to my parents
Mom made me a delicious grilled cheese.
I headed down to therapy after that.
Very sad because I am trying
to learn
to love myself.
I want to cry about it but I can’t.
Sometimes my throat is so tight
I feel like I’m choking.
I came home
and
threw myself into Brandon’s arms.
We lied together on the bed; I snuggled in the crook of his arm
he lazily
tickled circles on my back.
And I realized that
this was the first time
in a long time
that I have felt
completely ohso completely
Safe.
I kissed him, I thanked him
for loving me.
Because if he can,
perhaps
I can, too.
Then Whit and I
went on
a walk with Lil C
in the stroller.
We talked about things
we only tell each other.
We watched Lil C play
on the playground
and were
joyful
Because his was infectious.
And I felt a little better.
I came home and
needed more hugs from Brandon.
To feel alive
and safe.
And then I fell asleep.
I was calm.
Went to work, and then picked up my baby boy from the sitter.
Wandered up to my parents
Mom made me a delicious grilled cheese.
I headed down to therapy after that.
Very sad because I am trying
to learn
to love myself.
I want to cry about it but I can’t.
Sometimes my throat is so tight
I feel like I’m choking.
I came home
and
threw myself into Brandon’s arms.
We lied together on the bed; I snuggled in the crook of his arm
he lazily
tickled circles on my back.
And I realized that
this was the first time
in a long time
that I have felt
completely ohso completely
Safe.
I kissed him, I thanked him
for loving me.
Because if he can,
perhaps
I can, too.
Then Whit and I
went on
a walk with Lil C
in the stroller.
We talked about things
we only tell each other.
We watched Lil C play
on the playground
and were
joyful
Because his was infectious.
And I felt a little better.
I came home and
needed more hugs from Brandon.
To feel alive
and safe.
And then I fell asleep.
I was calm.
8 comments:
That is really beautiful.
(glad you are back)
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Hi Brie, it seems to me you have a lot of people who really love you in your life, and whom which you can be open about things with...thats important : ) thanx for sharing, x
I think that you are LUCKY sometimes that you are sensitive. Its so much better than the alternative. And you married a sensitive man. So much better than the alternative.
Miss B, beauty in its fullest form radiates from you. I love you. xo
I love love LOVE this poem! Not much else to say right now but that you are pretty amazing.
Oh, and fyi that dietitian I was telling you about isn't at the same clinic as MB anymore, I think she started her own thing and I can send you her website if you want.
ahhh I loved that.
I liked that, you are lucky to have such a great hubby!
sounds like a good day to me
little things, remember
it is the little things
like a pair of safe arms
that are BIG
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