Change is Scary

And THAT is the understatement of the century.  I have seriously spent a good chunk of the day crying and trying not to freak out, while pretty much just freaking out anyway.  There are lots of changes on the horizon and it is scary and hard for me.  Really hard for me.

Maybe I can share more in the next week or so, as things finalize and I know more of what is happening, but for now I probably shouldn't say much.

Obviously some change can be good - moving into our house, and having another baby, and recovering from the ED - all that is awesome - but the rest of it?  DON'T CHANGE DON'T CHANGE STAY THE SAME!!!!

I hate feeling so uneasy and unsure of my place in the world and what is going to be happening soon, and how I'm going to cope.

Sorry this is sort of vague, I just needed a general place to get out some anxiety without going into detail.  Prayers/good vibes wanted.

Thanks.