Thursday, September 25, 2008

An Up to the Date

So much drama for your mama going on right now. I hate stress; I swear it’s making me break out. Yuck. So, for your reading (un)enjoyment, here is the low down ho down of what’s been going on with the Briester:

I’m back to the freaking feeding tube again. For reals lost a lot of weight, I guess. I saw my dietician, H, yesterday and she was kind of having a mini freak-out about how I looked; I haven’t been to see her in 2 months (I know) (my bad) and she was shocked. I can’t do more than 3 cans of Jevity a night until I get my lab work done because of the re-feeding phenomenon. Seriously, so weird. Who knew your heart could stop beating when you start giving it a butt load ‘o nutrients again? You’d think it’d be happy. Huh. So I’m plugging along, again, which is soooooooo awesome, and I don’t think I even mean that sarcastically.

What else? Nothing. My life is a barren wasteland of a corporate job bowing to The Man. I am a domestic/fertility/corporate/brunette goddess. I guess that’s the one plus I have going on in my life. I continue to thoroughly enjoy my haircut. Lil C is still my best bud, except yesterday we got in a fight and I bought him a fire truck to make it up to him. I guess I’m the adult or whatever, so I’m supposed to be mature. I need to immediately comprar this, and when I do, I know that my life will be complete. I already own it in white and red. I need its twinner.

That’s all, homies. LOVE YOU!!!!!
Holy oh my moly this post was all over the place. Whaaaaaat is up with that? Whateva.

22 comments:

brie said...

"...a corporate job bowing to The Man"

So who else thought I said "blowing the man?" For reals, I re-read my post and I SO thought that's what I wrote! Ha ha, love it!

jana bananas said...

I have that hoodie! Get it and we can be twinners! And I have it in the other color too, so we'd be double twinners!

zubeldia said...

I'm so happy, Brie, to hear this. We all know where I stand on your weight status, my girl (this is my new favourite phrase, borrowed from ania!), and I have been very worried...

And... well, I had no idea that it'd been that long since you saw H. Phew. Are you seeing her more regularly from now on, poppet?

Love you, and thinking about you A LOT.

brie said...

Yes, Z, I have to see her weekly. I have no choice on the matter, and I know this is a good thing...just trying to rememer that...thanks for commenting, I've missed you. :)

ania said...

Dear Brie,

I am sorry that you're having to deal with this.

But, I'm so happy that you have this as an intermediate option. I mean, that will work in your current situation to get your body (you) healthier with minimal disruption to your life.

Please take care!

Also, in your little photographs on the right? You look quite exotic and Pacific Islander-ish.

With respect and encouragement....

KC Elaine said...

I'm happy to hear you're being so proactive in your recovery! way proud.

Stacy said...

Sorry your body is freaking out on you. I know you are trying... so it just needs to catch up already. HUGs!

So I keep finding subtle nuances in your posts... and the comment from your mom about your hair epiphany and her saying something a preggos in reference to you and your sisters and there have been others... are you hinting at something or is it just cause I am pregnant that the dots are connecting in my mind?!

brie said...

Stace Face, no I'm not preggers. Sad, I wish I was. Well, sometimes. But I'm so exhausted right now with Lil C, the thought of having another one is pretty overwhelming. Trust me, when I am pregnant, everybody that reads my blog will know!

KC Elaine said...

I never thought you thought such (about liberals) - sorry if I made it sound like all conservatives are that way. I think it's really just a few I've run into. I think you're way cool and respectful and I love to hear waht you think, liberal conservative or not!

brie said...

Don't worry K, I don't think that at all. I guess I should have phrased my comment better! Please don't feel bad, cuz I don't!

Lisa said...

Take care of yourself, Brie. You absolutely deserve to treat yourself well.

Jackie said...

You are a tubage goddess :)

Emily said...

Brie, I am glad you are doing what you need to do to get healthy. I have never had the tube, but I am sure they are awful. If I had money, I'd get the bad apples sweatshirt too. :)

H said...

You can do this...and I'm proud of you for not giving up. You never were a quitter, well, from what I know of you. Trust everyone around you, Brie. Your mom and dad, your sisters, your brothers, Brandon, the friends that see you often, your therapist, your dietitian. Trust those who speak with truth and honesty into your situation, that you need more nutrients. Try, try, try to believe them, and when you can't, just love them to death for believing and encouraging you! You have a strong support system already in place and many don't even have that. I feel so relieved that there are others out there and around you who can help you through this physically, emotionally, mentally, and even spiritually. Getting "better" isn't just about gaining the weight..you know that...it's so much more. Grasp onto the faith of those around you and will yourself believe as well...that you CAN beat this.

brydelle said...

Man, your life sounds like it sucks worse than mine. And that was meant in a totally loving way, since it takes a lot these days for me to feel actual empathy towards anyone. I love you though, and miss you, and I'll see you on Saturday!! Good luck with, y'know . . . life.

Laura said...

so my 7 year old daughter walked up to me while reading this post, and said, "Feeding WHAT? sucks???"
I cracked up laughing...and avoided telling her that the word she couldn't read was "tube"...this girl loves food so much that if she knew there was such a thing as a feeding tube, she would beg for one for Christmas!

kathy with a k said...

The most random comment to the most random post...ever.

why'd you drop out of college?

brie said...

K, I dropped out of college for a number of reasons: 1st off, I dropped out of 3 semesters due to ED related issues...two of the semesters I actually ended up going into treatment. But then I got prego, and I really want to go back, but it'll have to wait until C is older, plus, I need to wait till B graduates, because we can't afford to pay 2 tuitions at a time. Why the random question?

kathy with a k said...

just curious. Your recent "tubing" had me thinking of all an eating disorder takes away, while giving more prominence to itself. Guess I just wanted to know more about you and less about "it".
This total stranger from across the country thinks it'd be great if you finished and got your degree someday. You totally deserve that kind of accomplishment.

brie said...

L, maybe I should start thinking about feeding tubes in the same manner as your daughter. I think I'm going to start thinking about it in the same way I'd think about a Christmas present. It might be especially important to remember this while I've just poked it through my sinus canal and am inching it down my throat - right at the time it hits my gag reflex is usually when I cough and break some blood vessels in my eyes, and sometimes throw it back up. DEFINITELY need something warm and fuzzy to get me through those times, you know?

brie said...

K, I'd love to finish my degree, and I really do intend to. Total surprise pregnancy...and since it was so hard, I tried to go to school while I was knocked up, but just couldn't do it. One day though!

Krystle said...

Hang in there, love. You are so strong, and I admire you for sticking with recovery, even when it's at its hardest. xoxoxo