Friday, July 11, 2008

I’m Manic…? (But it’s Okay Because I Got a New Car)

So much news today.

I saw my psychiatrist last night, and I feel very hopeful that my crazy brain and its sucktastic chemicals can be straightened out shortly. He said I was in a “manic state,” which made me a little…I dunno…surprised, thoughtful, WTF? etc, because, well, the term “manic” is usually paired with bi-polar or some other mood disorder. He stayed away from any diagnosing, thankfully, and tweaked my meds so that I feel quite optimistic I’ll stop hankering to jump off my roof or fantasizing about throwing things at my husband’s face. He was so sweet, though, and kept saying he was so sorry about how many years I’ve had to suffer, and said he thought I was too skinny and needed to gain weight,
but he miraculously somehow managed to say it in the right way, (whatever way that is) and not in one of the ways that makes one want to throttle another’s throat. He’s a cute old man that looks just like Orville Redenbacher. Seriously.

So, in my previous post, I vaguely mentioned car troubles. I found it extremely irritating and ironic yesterday that as I was on my way home from dropping Agent Mulder off at the mechanic to get his AC fixed (finally!) our other car, a ’98 Jetta, which is a monumental P.O.S, died. Splat, kerplunk. DEAD. I only made it a few blocks down the road before the piece of crap started freaking out and making dying noises and refusing to move much. I coasted into a gas station parking lot (by this time everybody was honking at me because I was going so slow and naturally I was freaking out because I couldn't find my hazards in such hostile conditions) and barely made it into a spot before it wouldn't move at all anymore. The transmission is shot, and it would cost far more to fix it than it’s even worth. So I called Brandon, frustrated, hot, freaked out; and he came to pick me up in one of his company cars. Well, by that time, we were both in a pretty rotten mood (I was really wanting to chuck things at his face by this point) because we were suddenly out a car, and weren’t sure what we were going to do about it.

So, fast forward a few hours, and I’m driving home from work. I call Bran, ask him what’s up, and he finally tells me he’s on his way home from buying me a new car. Our convo went something like this:

Brandon: I just bought you a new car.
Me: Shutup.
Brandon: No, really I did.
Me: Shutup, no you didn’t.
Brandon: I really did. Seriously.
Me: This isn’t even funny. I’m in a bad mood, and this isn’t helping.
Brandon: Brie! I got you a new car!
Me: Alright then, what kind of car did you get?
Brandon: It’s a brand new 2008 Jetta.
Me: SHUTUP. You’re so lame. You think I’m falling for this joke? Where are you really?
Brandon: :(

Well, it turns out he really did buy me the new car. It’s white – well, off-white, kind of like a satin eggshell color, really, and she’s a stick-shift, and she’s hot, and she’s mine, all mine! I’m. so. happy. Money can’t buy happiness, (I hear) but cars sure can. Whee! Here's a pic of the car, only obviously this is the wrong color - Google didn't have my color available. Boo!

I’m a little sad, though. Today one of my dear friends/supervisors is…well…let’s just say no longer working for the company. She came up to me, and hugged me for like five minutes, and was crying, and telling me she loved me and to take care of my “sweet little body” and to be healthy. I had a lump in my throat the size of Texas, and when she left, totally lost it. I’m going to miss her.

What else? Oh yes. We’re going to Idaho for the weekend to visit Brandon’s sister and her husband and their cute little baby. I’ll be home Sunday evening. I hope everyone has a lovely weekend.


jana bananas said...

I've been in a "mixed state" before where I was both manic and depressed, but it wasn't like full on mania. My doctor didn't officially diagnose me but said I had symptoms of bipolar. Bipolar NOS, really -- not major bipolar I or II.

In the mixed state, my mind was racing and one minute I'd have a good idea and the next second I'd think "This is the worst idea EVER" and I was uber depressed and anxious at the same time which makes one very impulsive. Mixed states are often when people try to kill themselves because not only do they feel absolutely horrible and effing crazy, but they now have this major impulsive energy to just go for it.

Anyway, it was the closest to batshit crazy I have ever, ever felt, and it was miserable. It sounds kinda like what you went through and I'm so sorry that you had to go through that. Hopefully the new meds will even things out quickly.

And hey, it doesn't hurt to have a BRAND NEW CAR! Mmmmm, new car smell. Love it.

Stacy said...

HORRAY for a new car and happiness and lassoing the manic craziness. I loved your little convo with your man. I hope your trip is wonderous in your hot new ride with your freezing cold AC! YA YA YA!

brie said...

JB, a "mixed state" sounds like exactly what I've been going through! Yay to you for giving me another mental health term that I didn't yet know. :)

Emily said...

A new car?! YEAH!!! I'm so happy for you! :) You deserve a new car.

I'm glad your doctor figured out what's up with you. I am glad he tweaked your meds to help you out. And I'm glad he's so tactful! :)

Keely said...

Yay for new cars! Wa-hoo! I am glad your feeling a bit better. Have a great weekend in idaho. :)

Krista said...

I would freak(in a bad way) if my husband bought a new car without me there. I think that's cool for you though. No more hot sweaty car rides home from work!

Tanya said...

YAY!! Dude I would love to find out I had a new car. Though admittedly I was just happy to find out I had any car...with AC and with radio.

I hope the tweaked meds really help. I hate the depressed manic type states. or "mixed state" as it is. I have been there and I know they really, really suck. Take care of yourself hun and I hope you have an awesome time in Idaho.

Abby said...

I would have to vote that when one trades in money for a car, that money has just effectively bought happiness. And you deserve some happiness, so enjoy!

By the way, what's her name?

(And yes, I admire your stick shift skills. Alas, I'm not that competent!)

kristin said...

I'm so glad to hear that you got a new car! That's awesome! :)

emo said...

That is so cool you have a new car! I am excited to see it and to see you guys tonight!

zubeldia said...

oh, your new car is lovely! I bought a new car 4 years ago following many years with rubbish cars. You would laugh if you saw the cars I drove as in the UK we do have funny little cars to choose from. I still love my car, and I am so grateful that it holds all my sports equipment and doesn't require me opening the bonnet (hood for you US peeps) and disconnecting the fan so the battery didn't die... those were the days.

I suspect your doc managed to say 'you're too thin' more delicately than me, and I know i've been pushing it, but you know, I hope, that it comes from a place of love and care for you (and I am very attached to your bones and endocrine system....). I will tell you that when I was underweight I was CRAZY, really crazy. Gaining weight, too, with all the shifts in my body made me SUPER CRAZY, but not I am pretty stable in my weight I am only a little bit crazy :-)

Love you, missy Brie. Have fun this weekend and be in touch.

S said...

I love your new car. I have a Jetta too, and I just love them. :)

I used to see a psychiatrist who was the cutest old man, but he was a little odd. He always told me to call him if I woke up and found "green jello coming out of my ears" (because of my meds). Heh.

S said...

Thanks! I hope so too.
I'm both excited and nervous to see what happens next.

Anonymous said...

Yay! A new car. Brie, l am so happy for you.

Jodi said...

Congrats on the new car!! I had a VW (an '85!) in high school and I absolutely loved it.

I hope the tweaking is painless and gets you to where you want to be. : )

jana bananas said...

Why do I keep obsessively checking your blog for updates when I know you are in Idaho? I am such a freak. You better post tomorrow or I might go crazy.

brie said...

JB, your wish is my command.

Although, it's probably, literally, the shortest blog I've ever written. But whatever. It's something, right?

Abby said...

Brie, Brie--are you going to introduce her by name, or not? These things are important!

brie said...

Oh Abby, you're right! I've already bequeathed her with a lovely name, but I shall introduce her in a more formal manner in another post, okay? Perhaps tonight or tomorrow, as soon as I get home from Idaho. ...Man, if people think Utah is should go to Idaho!

Abby said...

Okay, I'll be checking back soon for the introduction! Plus pictures, maybe? Some people might argue that if you've seen one example of a certain sort of car, you don't need to see further individual examples of that sort of car, but I really don't go for that line of thinking. Cars are people, too! No, that's not quite right--I think they're more like really big pets. Confession: Sometimes I pat Charlotte on the corner of her trunk and tell her that she's a good car. Yeah, 'tis true....