Tuesday, July 1, 2008

Feeding Tube & Other Stuff

Okay, well, to update on the feeding tube (it's been awhile, hasn't it?): my D is allowing me to only put it in 3x a week now, on Mon, Wed, and Sat when I go to my yoga class so that I can especially make up for any burned calories. I’ve made a lot of progress as far as weight gain goes, then have lost a bit, so I’m working to perhaps gain it back on my own without having to rely on the tube entirely. A huge fear of mine (and my treatment team’s) is that I’ll get so reliant on the tube; I won’t eat much solid food. I definitely don’t want to do that, so I’m happy for the chance to use it only 3x a week and see if I can manage.

I absolutely adore my yoga class. It’s YOGAMAZING, if you will. I love the mind/body connection, and how it’s about strength and endurance and not cardio and calorie burning and weight loss. Last night when the hour was up, I was so disappointed. I could have gone on forever.





Here are a couple of pictures of the kitten. He’s pictured with my mental kitten, Hairy. Bobbi wouldn’t pose with them, she’s still miffed about the small mammal using her littler space and eating her food and sniffing around her butt et al.

The Cadester is doing great. He’ll be two next month, I can’t even believe it. Since I lost my camera, (I can’t even talk about it, I’m so upset) I can’t post a plethora of adorable pics, but I’ll post this one – I stole it from my friend Laurie’s blog. That’s her little boy, Conner, who is hella cute. As you can see Cade’s big and blonde babymazing. He talks like crazy now, and strings three and four and five words together already. He’s great at communicating what he wants and needs. When I pick him up from the babysitter, he’ll inform me the whole way home that he was scared. “I scared,” he says, over and over. ...


Unfortunately, as you can tell, he seems to have a tender little sensitive personality like his mama. When I nap, he’ll say, “Mama tired. Night-night mama,” and kiss me goodnight. He’s my perfect sweet angel baby, and he’s so fun to have around. His current obsession is his shoes. He always has to be wearing either his Crocs or sandals. And he’ll tell me which he wants to wear, and it switches all the time – sometimes it gets old because he wants it changed all. the. time. This morning, the first thing he said to me as I pulled him out of the crib to get him ready, was “Cwocs, mama. Cwocs.” I put on his sannals (sandals) and he was mad, but I couldn’t find the other cwoc. He definitely is a small man who knows what he wants – and he lets everyone know. He subsists mainly on mac ‘n cheese and waffles and gummy bears. I can barely get him to eat much more, which is a bummer, but the kid loves to go through weird food phases, as do all toddlers, so I’m hoping his propensity for narrowing his food choices are a sign of him “just being a toddler,” rather than “having a mom who has an eating disorder and therefore passes on weirdness to him.” Yikes.

What else? Not much, I guess. Loving the summer heat, and when I’m not loving it, I’m cursing the ozone and the faulty atmosphere and global warming for making it so damn hot. This is usually when I’m in my un-air conditioned car, sweat trickling down my back and neck and me not being able to hear myself think because the windows are rolled down on the freeway, and it’s pretty deafening. Seriously. I can’t even think about it, it just makes me all tight and angry inside.

Okay, well, sorry this post was neither funny nor interesting. I just don’t seem to have much to post about lately.

14 comments:

kristin said...
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kristin said...

I thought that your post was funny and interesting. You are always interesting and frequently funny. :)

Cade is adorable and so is Totem! I'm glad that the kitties are accepting the new kitten.

It's been really hot here lately, too. It's been in the low 90s, but I think that's nothing compared to SLC. I remember when Pearl's AC was broken and it was into the mid-90s and I was dying. I hope that you can get Agent Mulder's fixed.

Take care, Brie! :)

Emily said...

Hey! I am so proud of you for making so much progress with weight gain and food. That is amazing that you only have to use your tube 3 times a week now! :) Yay! And I know I've said this before, but I LOVE yoga. It is awesome. Cade is adorable, I wish I lived near you so I could give your small man (and you!) a big hug! He's gonna be 2 soon? Time does fly! I still have a picture of you and him at the mall when he was a little baby. It's on my closet door. Totem is cute, too.

alriggells said...

It was definitely interesting and fun to hear. You are amazing my dear, and I am so happy for you and proud of you. Cade is one hot mini man. We need to get together sometime soon...honestly

Kathy with a K said...

I am lovin' that new kitty!!
Cade's pretty darn adorable too! :)

Check out my sister's latest blog post today on Piece of Cake. It's great if you're in need of a huge laugh!

And as for toddlers, eating habits, eating disordered moms and feeding tubes...well, my kids have always been my best motivation for staying on track and doing my best to set a healthy (healthy as possible...) example for them. Keep on going Brie. You're doing a great job.

Courtney said...

I'm so glad to hear you're getting to decrease the wretched tube feeds! That, my friend, is evidence of your awesome strength. And even though it can be really tough, I think you're wise to rely on the tube as little as possible because that's how to sustain real recovery.

Cade is so cute, I can't wait until my kid gets to that stage! And sorry to hear about your camera, I dropped my first ever digital camera, along with 100+ awesome pictures, off a waterfall. I seriously wanted to take the 200 ft plunge myself to try to rescue it, though there wouldn't have been much of either of us to rescue after that.

Sarah said...

you are yogalicious

Krista said...

Where do you take yoga at? I used to take a class at my gym and the teacher would give you a hand massage at the end. It was blissful! I love hearing about Cade. He is adorable.

Cammy said...

First: Cade is ADORABLE.
Second: Congrats on making progress with moving off the tube, it sounds like not having to deal with it will be a good incentive to stay on track with eating solids and such. Hang in there, I know the weight gain process is hard, but try to think of it more as gaining *health*, which is exactly true.
Third: Thanks for mentioning the yoga class (this post was not boring!), I'm glad that is proving to be beneficial for you. I have been wondering if something like that would help me, I might look into signing up for one in the fall. Is it like martial arts, are there specific kinds of yoga? I am obviously ignorant on the matter.

Hang in there, you are stronger than you give yourself credit for sometimes!

Devon said...

I greatly enjoyed it weirdo - don't underestimate the 'update' posts.

We MUST play soon! It's no longer an option - it's just what needs to happen

Devon said...

PS - I need to meet your newest family member as well - duh!

Palmtreechick said...

I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOVVVVVVVVVVVEEEEEEEEEEEE the cats. (now, let me tell you how i really feel about them!)

Abby said...

So I'm sitting here laughing and laughing about Cade and his shoes... and I get to the end of the post--and you say it wasn't funny? Trust me, it was fabulously funny. Cade, of course, is so cute that it's really kind of shocking. I'm basically in awe of his adorability. And the shoe thing amuses me because I have a thing with Crocs... specifically, I loathe them beyond loathing, so it just cracks me up that your little guy loves his Crocs so much! But I must admit that they don't sound so bad if you call them "Cwocs"... so it's all good!

Melisa said...

I agree. Yoga is the best type of exercise I will ever need. I sweat enough in that class to chalk it up to a good cardio work out! Your baby boy is adorable! Love the pic's!