Unsure of how to proceed with dietary. I have been fully compliant and following my mealplan for a couple months now, and I've noticed that since I've been doing really well, I just really don't want to make my dietary appointments. Last week I had to cancel my appointment because Mila had her 6 month well-child checkup, and then this week I did a phone session, because both my kids were sick. And, confession: it was really nice not going. I think my dietician is great; it has nothing to do with her, but it was still really nice to have one less appointment every week.
On the phone while talking to my dietician, she stressed that she thinks it's really important that I keep coming every week, because yes I'm compliant and doing well, but we have other things we could finally begin working on now that I'm at a stable weight and maintaining it, like intuitive eating. And I was quite aggreable and told her sure, sure, but here's what I'm really thinking:
I feel like since I'm at a healthy weight and that I'm not engaging in eating disorder behaviors, then I must be "all better," and not need to go to dietary anymore. With therapy, I can see all the ways that I'm still messed up all the way to next Thursday, so it makes keeping my therapy appointments easy because it makes sense, but with nutritional stuff, since I'm not engaging in the ED, then I must be just fine, right?
So I mentioned this all to my therapist today, and she agreed I was doing so much better, but she pointed out that I probably really don't want to follow a strict mealplan for the rest of my life, as that isn't normal, and my body image is in the gutter, and that's not really ideal, either. All reasons that maybe I should continue going to dietary.
But I can't shake that "I'm fine I'm fine yadda yadda don't need it don't make me go" mentality. It's making finding the motivation to make and keep my appointments really tough.
So, where should I go from here? Any of you ever been in my boat? What do you think?
PS - We're getting our family pictures tomorrow, so stay tuned for some fun pics to come. :)