Thursday, August 12, 2010

So Where the H Bomb Have I Been?

Hey friends!

So much has happened.  Let's do a little quickie:

I quit my job!  This is momentous!  I worked at [Healthcare Company] for over three years, and, in June, I was like, "I'm bored!  Work is lame!  The Man can suck it!"  So...I put in my three weeks notice (an extra week cuz I"m so generous) and, in the first week of July, I said goodbye to my job forever.

What have I been doing in the meantime?

Going to the pool.  Seriously guys, I'm so effin' tan.  You should see my knees.  Yes, my knees.  For some reason they tan a wee bit more than the rest of my bod, and they are now 9/10 African American.   Cade, Bestie, (that would be Whit) and I go usually 4-5 times a week and soak up the vitamin D.  It's been glorious.  :)

I've also just been having a really fun time being a stay at home mama and focusing on mommy-hood.  Cade's never really had a chance to have his mama home full-time.  I went IP at CFC when he was four months old, and then when I got out, I started working right away, so the little guy has never had a real chance to hear his mama in the morning say, "Whaddya want for breakfast, kid, and don't make it anything hard like OATMEAL or PANCAKES  ...What?  You want cereal?  Coming right up!"  ...And, I think he's really loving it too, though I'll admit he misses going to my sister's house to be babysat every day because her kids are his besties and he misses his "fwiends" (and pancakes).  But all in all life in our little house on the prairie is going swell. (Although the downside to staying at home all day?  THE CLEANING.  OH.MY.YUCK.)

ED-wise, I'm doing fricktastic.  "Frick" meaning I've gained a lot of weight and am kinda sorta panicking about that maybe a leeeetttle, and "tastic" being that I know it's a great! and fabulous! and wonderful! and necessary! thing.  It royally sucks bizalls though; my treatment team gave me an ultimatum about 3 weeks ago that entailed me HAVING to gain the rest of my weight by September 1st or else this chick is CANNED.  Fired.  Finito.  Done. 
Effers. 
I was so pissed.  It's not like I was deathly underweight or anything, we're talking I was under by only a few ell bees, so to be given an ultimatum was kind of embarrassing.  But my therapist was getting tired of me gaining a little, then losing a little, so, she said, quite bluntly, and I quote, "SHIT OR GET OFF THE CAN."
So I'm shitting. 
I mean this literally.  I'm drinking over 2000 cals a day in Boost on Steroids ALONE.  My metabo is so revved up I'm pizooing like TWICE A DAY.  It's INSANITY.

I think I decided to start blogging again because, yeah, I miss you guys, but you know what I think I miss even more?  Writing.  Holy moly with some guacamole I miss sitting at my laptop and letting the words just flow outta me.  Writing is soooooo therapeutic for me, and I think I lose touch with part of myself when I stop writing.  And, the support I get from all of you is HUGE.  You guys seriously give me like a little more than half the self-esteem I've got.  You're da raddest.

So I'm back.  I missed you.  Let's hug and never part again, m'kay?
LOVE YOU.

23 comments:

Cammy said...

Hey B, missed you. I think it's GREAT that you decided to put your life first and spend some time at home, awesome and I bet Cade is loving it.

Sounds like your team is tough but awesome. Remember those little ell bees gaps can be awfully tempting to lengthen and that can lead to a slippery slope...not that you're not doing AWESOME, which you totally are, but I think it will be a great thing for you to follow through the whole nine yards on this, mentally even more than physically in my opinion, because you'll prove to yourself that this goal IS doable and it IS ok and you won't be fat or unattractive or any of those things, you'll be one rocking hot Brie that is healthy enough to embrace the life she deserves. Sorry for the run-on sentence there, that's how I think.

Jamie :) said...

I think this might be the first time I made it into the top 20 comments! It's good to have you back Brie--I think your writing is theraputic for the rest of us too! I always get a good laugh, tear, or just plain "i love Brie" feelings. You are amazing girl! Enjoy being at home with your little man-child!

i love bows:) said...

nice one chick!

Devon said...

Hugsies - yay for breakfast soon. Shweet.

Angela said...

This post made me grin ear to ear! What a wonderful, positive post to read. Just what I needed:)

Eating Alone said...

What is so hard about pancakes? Those are easy.

Shannon said...

Sounds like you are doing great! I hear you about the cleaning. Boo. It is definitely one of the drawbacks of staying home. The perk being naps, oh and being with the kiddos. :)

Amy said...

Welcome back (=

allegri said...

Brie! Welcome back! Oh, have we missed you so! I am sooooo happy for you being able to live your dream of being home with the man child. Its such a blessing to have mothers who enjoy that! I know I would DIE if I was at home ALL DAY - EVERYDAY. I'd need some sort of part time something just for sanity! I really think its awesome you are capable of it! Going to the pool that often sounds fantabulous! I am quite jealous. I have been working so much that my entire body (with the exception of my arms) is a shade of pale white!

As for the weight gain. I know it sucks. But you can do it. We all KNOW you can. And it will help you soooo much. No matter how tasteless + disgusting Boost is. Blah. Gross. But W has some smarts in her approach, she may be evil at times, but she does know the benefits it will have. (Give your hubs some ass to grab too (; haha...) Maintaining is ridiculously hard - I totally agree. It sucks - as soon as you think "I am ok" + "don't need to watch it anymore" it just becomes a down hill slide. no bueno. Been there done that (way tooooo many times....)

Cheers to you + your exciting wonderful life, I raise a Boost in your honor (:

much love <3

Missy said...

So glad to read all the good news and so glad you are writing again! You are born to do it....and it makes you feel good right?

PS - Sorry about the Boost. Keep a magazine in the bathroom.

PPS - Pancakes ARE hard. And in the morning? For...Get...It.

Peace/Love/Blessings~ Missy

Maeve said...

I'm so excited that you're back! I'm even more excited that you're back with all this awesome news about the great changes that you've made in your life.

I know you have this ability to be fantastically optimistic on your blog and I know that some of this must be difficult, but it is so wonderful to hear you so full of life!

Yay!

Alexandra Rising said...

Welcome back :] I just updated my own last night coincidentally. I missed your writing and I'm glad to see it back! I'm glad you are having a good summer, too :]

Insurance dropped me yesterday so I am flying back to NY on Monday and I. Am. Devastated. [and petrified]. It's nice to know Ill have some fun Brie blogs to keep me going throughout the days to come...

<3

bananas said...

Guess who gets to see you in TWO WEEKS?
<-------- THIS GIRL!!!!!!

heather said...

Sweeeeeet. Just everything about this. Sweet!

Glad you're back!

takeupyourbedandwalk said...

YAY!!! So glad you're back. :)

Marste

takeupyourbedandwalk said...

YAY!!! So glad you're back. :)

Marste

takeupyourbedandwalk said...

Crap. No idea why that posted twice. (Maybe I'm just *that* glad? :D)

8468 said...

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alriggells said...

Welcome back Brizzle. I am excited to read your postings again. You rock my socks and we should play again soon because we are sooooo effing cool like that. Loves....Oh p.s. When are we ever going to have another WHAT IF... game again. It is time my friend it is time...

Tylaine said...

Oh man I almost fell of my chair when I read you're pizooing!! LOL
I'm so glad you're back Bree. I've missed reading your wicked sense of humor and delightful wisdom and insight into life. (and I truly mean that from the bottom of my heart :)) It's great to hear you're doing so well and that you're now a stay at home mama. It's so great ain't it!!!
Love ya Bree!

e.motions and ana.lysis said...

Brie-
I know that you really have no idea who I am, but I love your writing and your blog and I'm very glad you're back. In the menu of blogs, you're a dessert (an enjoyable one, not a mandated fear food)! :)
-Em

e.motions and ana.lysis said...

Brie-
I know that you really have no idea who I am, but I love your writing and your blog and I'm very glad you're back. In the menu of blogs, you're a dessert (an enjoyable one, not a mandated fear food)! :)
-Em

Sarah said...

I'm so happy you get some time with Cade to just be a mommy and focus on him and yourself! I'm just catching up on all your posts so I won't make this a novel, but I'm SOOOO glad you missed writing because I missed READING!!!