Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Menial Things, Really

I'm really in the mood to blog right now which is so weird because I honestly haven't had the urge in what, 3, 4 months?  Not sure what's come over me.  Just feel like rambling I guess, I've got a lot going on.

Who here watches and loves Mad Men?  I've heard that it's amazing, and I think Big B and I are finally going to start the series tonight.  If it's boring I blame you.  Or maybe all those status updates on FB saying otherwise.

I think for the past several months (since I stopped writing on my blog consistently) but really even more for the past month, I've really been isolating myself.  I don't mean to...I just get absorbed in my own drama and kind of do my own thang.  My mom noted today that I seem "pensive."  I don't think I'm pensive so much as just...I dunno...distracted.  And if I'm not distracted, I'm really full and sick from all the Boost and food I'm shoveling in, and that of course gets me thinking about my body image that can't get any lower unless it goes straight to Hell, and then I think about the size of my pants and all my glorious FLESH.  Shivers.

ANYWAY.  What I'm trying to say is that I'm TRYING to get out of this funk I'm in and get out of my hole and actually start interacting with the world.  Blogging is one of the ways in which I am trying to do this.

You know, I'm really liking life as a stay at home mama, but I'll admit that I sometimes stop what I'm doing in a day and am like, HOLY OH MY MOLY I'M BORED.  Especially right around 3:00, 3:30.  It's awful.  It's like all I can think about is how lovely it would be to take a nap and turn Spongebob on for The Kid.  I mean we've usually already gone out for the day and gone to the pool or the park or something, and the hour or two before Bster comes home is just S L O W.  Any ideas on what to do in the afternoon when I desperately need a second wind?  That seems to be the hardest time for me.

I hate that at 26, I can still act like I'm 5.  Mad at myself.  Mad, though, at other people who act like immature kids too.  Can't really expound much on this but yeah, just frustrated.

Blogging didn't really take the Gloomies away any.  That sucks.
Although this emo alpaca helped.  Bahaha.

7 comments:

THE CREATION OF A BEAUTIFUL LIFE said...

Well... If it makes you feel any better... I am super psyched that you have blogged consistently for a few days now... I mean... What else am I suppose to look forward to?

Anyhow... I was thinking... Have you read any good books lately? Reading always helps to pass time for me... And... As I just posted on my blog tonight... I strongly urge you to read the book All We Know of Heaven by Jacquelyn Mitchard. Soooo good! :)Seriously. I enjoyed it. I also STRONGLY suggest you read my favorite book EVER (which is also an INTERNATIONAL BESTSELLER) There's No Place Like Here by Cecilia Ahern. Super good read!

And finally... On the bright side... Enjoy the slowness of the next few months while you can.... Before you start back to school again. :)

bananas said...

You should really sex me up while I'm still technically employed to get a Kindle out of me...

And HA, you get that chance beginning Thursday! Dude, can you believe it? I can't wait to see you and your new hot bod and your kid who is so much older! OK, last time all he said to me was "nooooo" and "stop it" or just giggled endlessly. I'm quite curious to see how he reacts to me now!!

8468 said...

人生有些波折,才能有些成長,所以不論順逆,凡是成長、成功的助緣,都應該心存感激。.................................................

Alexandra Rising said...

Well, I [if I knew how to italicize, I would] think you are beautiful and I am very sorry you have to do so many boosts a day [uck!] but am proud of you for doing it :]

You should get skype. We can skype an Ensure/Boost together and then claim that we were social for the day.

Wishing I had more to say but I'm still tangled in my own silly web of a mind.

Thinking of you...and so happy for you and bananas and your upcoming 'nuptials'...or...visit. I think you will both benefit from it!!

allegri said...

I think that a nap would be grand... It would totally make your day more kick-a if you could make Cadesters take a nap too! It does wonders for me when I can nap!

PS - That Alpaca photo rocks my world!

Courtney said...

i completely hear ya on the adjusting to full-time mommyhood thing. i've been home for 21 months now (i do some work from home, but i don't think that really counts because you're still isolated in the house) and i still haven't figured it out. it doesn't help that i have no natural inclination toward homemaking stuff (cooking, crafts, sewing, etc) and i suck at sticking with the hobbies i try to get going.

i agree that getting out of the house at least once a day helps, but even then some days just drag. i know johnny is way younger than cade but if you ever want to play we're always around. my parents moved away this summer and i think my mom was worried i would never get out of the house so she bought us a pass to discovery gateway and we can get 3 people in free with us so let me know if you ever want to go!

Shannon said...

Emo Alpaca is hilarious. Thanks for sharing that.

Sorry you're feeling blah. It's no fun. Being a SAHM is great in a lot of ways, but the major drawback (for me anyway) is that I feel isolated a lot. I try to go out and do something every day. Usually in the morning. By nap time I kind of feel like I should be done. 4-6pm is the hardest part of my day. I don't want to go anywhere, but I'm over entertaining the wee ones. Sigh. I don't have any great suggestions. Half the time we watch a movie. The other half we play in the backyard. I hope you start feeling better soon though. And hang in there!