Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Who here watches and loves Mad Men? I've heard that it's amazing, and I think Big B and I are finally going to start the series tonight. If it's boring I blame you. Or maybe all those status updates on FB saying otherwise.
I think for the past several months (since I stopped writing on my blog consistently) but really even more for the past month, I've really been isolating myself. I don't mean to...I just get absorbed in my own drama and kind of do my own thang. My mom noted today that I seem "pensive." I don't think I'm pensive so much as just...I dunno...distracted. And if I'm not distracted, I'm really full and sick from all the Boost and food I'm shoveling in, and that of course gets me thinking about my body image that can't get any lower unless it goes straight to Hell, and then I think about the size of my pants and all my glorious FLESH. Shivers.
ANYWAY. What I'm trying to say is that I'm TRYING to get out of this funk I'm in and get out of my hole and actually start interacting with the world. Blogging is one of the ways in which I am trying to do this.
You know, I'm really liking life as a stay at home mama, but I'll admit that I sometimes stop what I'm doing in a day and am like, HOLY OH MY MOLY I'M BORED. Especially right around 3:00, 3:30. It's awful. It's like all I can think about is how lovely it would be to take a nap and turn Spongebob on for The Kid. I mean we've usually already gone out for the day and gone to the pool or the park or something, and the hour or two before Bster comes home is just S L O W. Any ideas on what to do in the afternoon when I desperately need a second wind? That seems to be the hardest time for me.
I hate that at 26, I can still act like I'm 5. Mad at myself. Mad, though, at other people who act like immature kids too. Can't really expound much on this but yeah, just frustrated.
Blogging didn't really take the Gloomies away any. That sucks.
Although this emo alpaca helped. Bahaha.
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