Thanks to the few who responded on my last post. I appreciated it all very much.
Things have gotten a little better since my meltdown. Brandon has been awesome about this and has been helping me brainstorm ways in which I can still write, still pursue my dreams, even while being a 24/7 stay at home mama.
Here is what we have come up with:
Bran was sweet enough to buy me a laptop - we ordered it today, will come in the mail on Tuesday. I am THRILLED about this, not just because I've wanted my own laptop for awhile now, but so that I don't have to sit at our desktop with my back to Mila while I try to write. Now I can cart my laptop with me everywhere I go to write - whether that be at a coffee shop, to a park, or more likely - right on my sofa, sitting with my kids. I'm SO excited that I can have an easy way to write more readily available to me. Brandon has a laptop, and we have iPads and a desktop, but I don't have my own laptop, and now that I do, I know it will make things more simple. He also said that any time he is at home and not working, if I want some alone time to write, he'll scoop the kids up, no question, and get them out of my hair.
So, I'm ready to buckle down and really start getting out all the ideas for my book that are jangling around in my brain. I'm excited to share with you guys, too, as I move forward.
Also - another tidbit of exciting news - we are getting our grass SOON! We are putting sod down in our front yard, and hydro-seeding the backyard, but within a month or so it should all be in, and I am so so so SO happy, mostly because it will take a lot of stress off of Brandon and I. Not to mention that the idea of my kids running around outside in grass, rather than in dust and tracking it into my house and all over my floors makes me positively SWOON. :0 So, see? Things are already looking up.
Also, this is a complete aside - I am thinking of restricting access from my blog to some people who requested access, but never comment, and I am not sure even read anymore. So, if you do read, and I don't know you, please comment and let me know if you'd still like to read. I've got 100 people reading my blog, but only like 3 commenters, so I don't really know if there is anybody reading, and if they aren't, I don't want people to have stagnant access to my blog. So...if you want to read, and I don't know you and you never comment, please let me know so that I don't deny you access. :)