Mish Mash

I've decided, after a little trepidation, to keep Blogxygen up and running and to not make it private.  My posts are going to be much more family-oriented, and I probably won't talk about my ED much, and if that bores others or if they no longer want to read, then peace.  I'm changing I guess, and that means my blog is going to change.  I hope you stick around and read, but if you don't, as my niece would say, then get away from me, I don't even care.  ;)

Cade is doing well with Kindergarten - honestly, he's doing better than I thought he would.  I was really nervous about him starting school, but he is handling it like a champ and seems to really like it.  The other day I asked him what he did at school, and he answered, "I don't even know what I did but I know I loved it."  :)  Silly boy.  He's already made a new friend named Simjay (sp?) and they're best little buddies.  And this Simjay makes me smile because he's like some mini rocker with his shoulder-length hair and Vans shoes and skinny jeans.  I love how at as early as 5 years old, these kids already have such strong little personalities.  Take Cade for example.  Just now I asked him if I could take a picture of him for this blog post, and he gave me the dirtiest look and said NO WAY MOM.  I don't remember being such a little bugger as a kid, but now I'm totally digressing and that's neither here nor there.  So no cute picture of my son for you to look at today, I'm afraid.

Mila is doing well.  She's just starting to sleep a little better through the night, which is so fabulous - last night she only woke up twice, which is so much better than the 4 or so times she's been waking up previously.  She's also gaining weight - I don't know for sure, but I estimate she's almost 9 pounds by now, though I won't tell her that, because I won't everrrrrr focus on weight with her; there's no need to give her a complex afterall.  :)

I'm being evaluated on Monday for that pesky little thing called Post-Partum Depression.  I'm just plain ol' blue, there's no getting around it.  I never want to get up in the mornings or clean my house or do my hair, (which is NOT helping the self-esteem) and I'm really not functioning very well, so I want to get this checked out before it becomes, like, this Big Thing.  Just nip it in the bud, you know?  Maybe a change of meds will be good for me.

And, I don't want to focus on weight loss too much, especially since so many people that read my blog have EDs or used to, but while I still have some pregnancy weight to lose, I definitely have lost some, which is awesome, because I'm not restricting or resulting to old, anorexic behaviors to lose the weight, so this is big for me - to do it the right and healthy way and not turn all freaky eating disorder on you.  It's hard to be patient and lose the weight slowly, but I'm glad I am, not just for my health, but to be a good example to Mila and to look back and be really proud of myself.  That's something, right there.

I wanted to post this picture because I love this little parasite so much.  I wanted Cade in the picture too, but got the resounding NO WAY MOM, so I decided not to push it.  Have a good weekend, all!