Today's little victories:
I woke up this morning, and the mantra "I'm going to eat today" was not a question, but a statement.
I put on today's outift, and instead of scrutinizing myself, or changing my outift 3847 times, I just thought, Okay. I look nice. :) No judgement, no picking it apart, nothing.
I woke up today feeling great. I am healthy. I am strong. Since I have been weight restored, I haven't had to go to the hospital ONCE for lung-related issues. This is HUGE for me. GIGANTIC. When I was restricting and underweight, my lungs were severely compromised, and I was always needing medical intervention. And, because my lungs were only functioning at 40%, I was so TIRED. I was lethargic, listless, and had no energy to play with my kids. Today I can chase Cade around the house and swing Mila around in the air. These things seem so small, so menial, but I don't take them for granted, as not long ago, I couldn't do these things.
I went out to lunch with a good friend. (Biscuits.) I was able to eat lunch with her with no eating disorder thoughts creeping up, making me worry about my food. And not only did I order a pizza - but I ordered a SIDE OF FRIES. Might as well have ordered a SIDE OF HAPPINESS. Heaven! (The food and the company. :)
I am smiling. :D
And that's enough. It's perfectly enough. And the day isn't even halfway over!
Photo - Mommy and MJ, very happy in their spring outfits today.
9 comments:
I'm so glad that you're having a happy day. Yay for the little victories!
you made me smile so much with this post. little steps that have HUGE meaning. and you're looking radiant! thanks for putting a smile on my face I guess =)
That steak I had SUCKED....LOL. The mozzarella cheese was good. Those fries were yum.
I had a good time! Thanks!
That steak I had SUCKED....LOL. The mozzarella cheese was good. Those fries were yum.
I had a good time! Thanks!
beautiful happy healthy ladies!
I love the simplicity of the things that a lot of people would deem "mundane", but that are SO huge in recovery. I think this post speaks volumes about how well you're doing! I think a LOT of women, even ones who have not had EDs, try on 3083476 outfits in the morning... so I think that's a big one!
As Liz said... the little victories :)
Yay!
Oh my goodness. Where did u get these pants. I've been starring at your picture for like, forever. I'm drooling over these freakishly cute pants of urs. Do tell. Ps... You look like a hotter version of pocahontas is this photo! U go girl!
Gorgeous picture of you and Mila---because of the smiles. You guys have such similar grins, where your whole faces smile!
Loved this post. I love this series, it's incredibly inspirational. I was grinning by the end of it too! :)
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