tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6957758174408171291.post6728963624470332745..comments2023-10-31T04:07:31.317-06:00Comments on Blogxygen: #11 - I Want You to Understand That...briehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11495165592860741098noreply@blogger.comBlogger21125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6957758174408171291.post-40902604476209312792012-05-12T03:49:23.683-06:002012-05-12T03:49:23.683-06:00Wonderful Post. I relate alot of my pain to fear ...Wonderful Post. I relate alot of my pain to fear of rejection and rejection from my teenage years. I always thought I needed to make myself better. That same fear (rejection) is something that is still holding me back and that I am working through. I sometimes still feel like I am the high school girl that just wants to fit in and people to like her. The ED has been my friend, my source. But has made me isolate. Ironic. This was such a wonderful post. You are amazing!Agrace12https://www.blogger.com/profile/01846146374726058330noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6957758174408171291.post-6492489938486494192012-05-11T23:54:13.864-06:002012-05-11T23:54:13.864-06:00Wow Brie don't mean to sound cheesy but this i...Wow Brie don't mean to sound cheesy but this is so powerful and nearly brought me to tears. U are amazing and beautiful both inside and out u have an amazingly good heart and I wish I could be an ounce as real and honest as u are. I am in awe of u!brihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17755963094256509394noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6957758174408171291.post-51993505086987414772012-05-11T21:07:17.589-06:002012-05-11T21:07:17.589-06:00I love all you guys so much.nwe have more in commo...I love all you guys so much.nwe have more in common than we thought, huh?<br /><br /><3briehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11495165592860741098noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6957758174408171291.post-27729582095394370512012-05-11T18:14:18.249-06:002012-05-11T18:14:18.249-06:00I have always (as in the last couple years reading...I have always (as in the last couple years reading your blog) thought of you as good. and kind. very simply and obviously so. wonderful post.Sarah Hopehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13850581537834660108noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6957758174408171291.post-54106837436701236742012-05-11T17:21:15.130-06:002012-05-11T17:21:15.130-06:00I am 31 now and I think it was only last year when...I am 31 now and I think it was only last year when I began to figure out that I am not a freak, just different. I was so introverted during high school and I wanted so badly to fit in and be liked by all the fun, outgoing people. Everyone was like, what's wrong with you, you are so quiet! I really internalised that attitude of something being wrong with me. High school is so hard :Ppohttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00711119384786965311noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6957758174408171291.post-79266934216037661622012-05-11T16:33:09.574-06:002012-05-11T16:33:09.574-06:00P.S. I haven't commented in a while, but I am ...P.S. I haven't commented in a while, but I am loving your posts this month. The Hungry for Change one AND the others. ;)Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6957758174408171291.post-54652298024879093442012-05-11T16:32:29.372-06:002012-05-11T16:32:29.372-06:00I remember High School Brie, but - and here's ...I remember High School Brie, but - and here's the advantage of getting to know people online - I felt like I knew both of you. Or, actually, like I knew Real Brie better, because what I got to hear (er, read) was what you were thinking. Or at least what you chose to share of what you were thinking. Which was quite a bit, actually. Real Brie, even back then, was pretty awesome. Damn funny, too. And she still is.<br /><br />I was the opposite of you in high school, but with the same result. I was short, and round, and always somehow a misfit for reasons I did not (and still don't, really) understand. I was quiet because I was insecure, and that made people think I was snobby. Or else they didn't realize I existed. So, you know, I think we all go through this kind of thing, and because we don't talk about it, we all think it's just us. And in adolescence we don't have the perspective to realize it. <br /><br />So. You were not, and are not, alone. And for the record, I like you. Just as you are. I always have.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6957758174408171291.post-72309821402220550292012-05-11T16:32:09.314-06:002012-05-11T16:32:09.314-06:00I can see why this post would make you cry! It...I can see why this post would make you cry! It's very vulnerable, and probably dredged up a lot of unsavory feelings. It took a lot to share this with the blogging world.<br />I'm sorry high school was so tough... that was how I felt in junior high (7th - 9th grades)... and it's a horrible feeling; to feel isolated, excluded, and like no one really "gets you". <br />Just from knowing you online, I can tell that you have a great personality, and you're witty, and most importantly, you're a good person who cares. I wish you weren't so misunderstood for those years of your life - but rest assured... we all love you :)CHhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08142932059252908056noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6957758174408171291.post-49875473813015127902012-05-11T16:26:29.837-06:002012-05-11T16:26:29.837-06:00I had no idea. I always thought you were out of m...I had no idea. I always thought you were out of my "league" back in high school. I was all sorts of awkward and felt exactly the same way. Hell, I'm still trying to embrace my unconventional self :)Adam and Cassiehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01729544698900822410noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6957758174408171291.post-5757372024988764502012-05-11T14:51:38.588-06:002012-05-11T14:51:38.588-06:00You are bloody beautifulYou are bloody beautifulJackie Thttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11074495630673364674noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6957758174408171291.post-88931541596081502892012-05-11T14:14:37.103-06:002012-05-11T14:14:37.103-06:00thank you all so so much for these comments. it m...thank you all so so much for these comments. it made me feel less alone, and less like a freak. means a lot.<br /><br />L, your crush story on my brother made me laugh. heartily. :)briehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11495165592860741098noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6957758174408171291.post-64866973476810916482012-05-11T13:51:38.474-06:002012-05-11T13:51:38.474-06:00Ive always like you Brie! Not that you need to hea...Ive always like you Brie! Not that you need to hear that from ME, but its always nice to hear, right? I remember being on Seminary Counsel with you. I was totally intimidated by you...but to be honest, I was intimidated by, well...everyone! Pretty sure in all of our early morning meetings I would just sit there an listen to everyone talk. It wasnt until the end of my SENIOR YEAR OF HIGH SCHOOL I finally felt ok to be me. I do remember being told that you were going in for treatment, but I didnt judge. I was just sad that I would be able to get to know you better!<br /><br />Ya...High school was so awkward...arent you glad we get to grow up?Shannonhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02673459282276231731noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6957758174408171291.post-81474715995761591722012-05-11T13:46:52.841-06:002012-05-11T13:46:52.841-06:00Brie,
I think we may have been separated at birth....Brie,<br />I think we may have been separated at birth. I could have written parts of your post exactly (but not nearly as eloquently!!!!).Gretchenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07871959639004398849noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6957758174408171291.post-53621607655879558212012-05-11T13:45:17.451-06:002012-05-11T13:45:17.451-06:00Brie,
I think we may have been separated at birth....Brie,<br />I think we may have been separated at birth. I could have written that exactly (but not nearly as eloquently!!)Gretchenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07871959639004398849noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6957758174408171291.post-75757274593474114792012-05-11T13:39:26.250-06:002012-05-11T13:39:26.250-06:00Thanks for sharing this, Brie. I too have always ...Thanks for sharing this, Brie. I too have always felt misunderstood. Mostly because I was shy, but also because I could never verbalize exactly what I was thinking or feeling. It felt scary to talk. When you were 17 and I met you, I was so grateful to have a friend......you were and are so very insightful, caring, and most of all, funny as hell. You've come such a long way! We are all so complex, I wish people would truly stop all this assuming and judging.Heather Lindquisthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03995439065551579432noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6957758174408171291.post-39949821396847310362012-05-11T13:38:36.743-06:002012-05-11T13:38:36.743-06:00I loved this post. It really allowed me to see dee...I loved this post. It really allowed me to see deeper into who you are. I knew who you were in Jr high and High school and I actually thought you were a cool person and I wanted to be your friend but I was so shy and insecure and going through my own hell that I didn't think I was good enough to have a friend like you. I don't think we had any classes together or any of the same friends either. I'm so sorry I never got up the nerve to talk to you. I think you are so beautiful on the inside and out, you are an amazing strong women and I feel honored that I have the privalage to get to know you.Liz Hugheshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05753886935648800089noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6957758174408171291.post-19948746362762184222012-05-11T13:26:13.975-06:002012-05-11T13:26:13.975-06:00That was so beautiful and offers support to all th...That was so beautiful and offers support to all those who have buried themselves so deeply. Thank youalriggellshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07553937800829609050noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6957758174408171291.post-73155384362926611792012-05-11T13:24:02.664-06:002012-05-11T13:24:02.664-06:00He is hot... but oh so married. So sad (for me). E...He is hot... but oh so married. So sad (for me). Except for one time, during junior year (I think that's when it was), he came and played basketball outside with a bunch of other people, at an event at the E Center. I was there helping to ref. the game... And I'm pretty sure I remember taking the microphone and trying to flirt with him over the loud speaker, after he took his shirt off. <br /><br />Oh my goodness. I can't believe I am admitting to that. Young crushes. Bless my heart! LOL!Fight 4 Ur Lyfehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01710111095621345131noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6957758174408171291.post-11221410509627186762012-05-11T13:06:29.544-06:002012-05-11T13:06:29.544-06:00If I had known you in school I'd have been you...If I had known you in school I'd have been your friend. I had similar problems. Some of your post reminds me of the post I just wrote on my personal blog (not the Actively Arielle one). I talked about some similar stuff. I'm sorry you dealt with those things and I can also understand why you might cry while writing this. Since I can relate so much, I really hope for you that you can get back to that real Brie that's inside - that little girl one. Its a great feeling to have no insecurity and feel authentic again no matter who you are with. You ARE a good, kind person and I can see that. ((hugs))Arielle Bair, MSW, LSWhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05087215272280856919noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6957758174408171291.post-79557970360393100402012-05-11T12:54:29.944-06:002012-05-11T12:54:29.944-06:00L, thanks so much for your comment. it means a lo...L, thanks so much for your comment. it means a lot. high school pretty much sucks for most people, huh? i'm sorry it was hard for you too.<br /><br />and crush away on my twin...he is hot!! haha.briehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11495165592860741098noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6957758174408171291.post-23165739670541933672012-05-11T12:52:19.397-06:002012-05-11T12:52:19.397-06:00I'm sorry to hear that you felt so negative of...I'm sorry to hear that you felt so negative of yourself throughout highschool. We had a math class together, first semester of sophomore year. I was intimidated to talk to you, because, between you and M.W. (who I think was in the same modeling angecy with you, before you left the industry)... I thought the two of you were the two most beautiful girls in the school. I honestly felt ashamed to even associate or talk to either of you, because I didn't think that I was worthy. I felt like I was the school class office / theater club, geek. Guess we were all going through tough stuff. On a good note, I spent the extra energy crushing on your twin brother. Those were the good ol' days. :)<br /><br />You are BEAUTIFUL and WORTHY and AMAZING. Never forget it!Fight 4 Ur Lyfehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01710111095621345131noreply@blogger.com