tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6957758174408171291.post2913789046907798864..comments2023-10-31T04:07:31.317-06:00Comments on Blogxygen: On Angerbriehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11495165592860741098noreply@blogger.comBlogger16125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6957758174408171291.post-38159547701932198512009-10-25T08:36:10.728-06:002009-10-25T08:36:10.728-06:00Oh, Brie...I cried through this whole post. I'...Oh, Brie...I cried through this whole post. I'm so sorry :( It's such a terrible feeling to have your baby in pain and not be able to fix it. Have you put his name in the temple yet? I can do that if you'd like. Also, I do live 2 miles from PCMC, so if you ever need anything...ANYTHING...I'm so close and would be there in a minute! Give that little boy tons of kisses and hugs...they truly do have a healing and comforting power. I love you!!!Allihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10042135159492139723noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6957758174408171291.post-41200517713450362082009-10-25T00:30:20.227-06:002009-10-25T00:30:20.227-06:00I understand the feeling of helplesness and anger ...I understand the feeling of helplesness and anger at the world. We've had to go through a lot with Josh and watch him go in for IV's and sedations, MRI's and <br />surgery. It is okay to be angry. <br /><br />The feelings you are having are what any wonderful mother would feel and should feel. This is no fault of your own. I bet it is triggering for you because of your trauma when you were younger. I hope you can try to separate that from Cade's experience right now. He has his own way of thinking and processing just as everyone does. I think it is good that you have been through somthing like this because you will be so sensitive to his feelings now through this process. You can help him through this better than anyone can because you know what to watch for. The hard things you have been through in your life will only make you a better mother.<br /><br />I will pray for Cade. I'm so sorry for the pain you feel. The waiting game sucks. You can do it...if anyone can...it's you :)Brookehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09858072467285656596noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6957758174408171291.post-15419405684469920532009-10-24T18:34:34.793-06:002009-10-24T18:34:34.793-06:00Dude. I read your blog but rarely comment... I fel...Dude. I read your blog but rarely comment... I felt like I'd be evil and cruel, reading this and not leaving a little, pathetic form of some kind of cyber-hug. I haven't a word I could say. <br /><br />:-/<br />LindseyLindseyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02733618760873050239noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6957758174408171291.post-84789388526296946652009-10-24T13:20:42.008-06:002009-10-24T13:20:42.008-06:00Hi Brie, as Ive said before, you don't even kn...Hi Brie, as Ive said before, you don't even know me, but as someone in recovery Ive stumbled upon your blog and check up on it every day. I feel that all that you write is so truthful and honest and human. And so much of it is relevant to all of life not only recovery.<br /><br />Im so sorry to hear your little boy isn't well right now. I wish there was something I could to make things better, but all I can do is send you some of my hope that things will get better for you soon. Hang on to your hope, even when you can't feel it there, believe its there. Believe your hope is somewhere out there, and that it'll find you, and that everything will somehow be ok.<br /><br />lots of luv<br /><br />Evasonahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11413499868870317111noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6957758174408171291.post-12882576297937909882009-10-24T08:05:36.256-06:002009-10-24T08:05:36.256-06:00I am so so so sorry to hear that you and your fami...I am so so so sorry to hear that you and your family have been going through so much pain. <br /><br />I hope that you realise just how much strength and determination you are showing. Cade is lucky to have a mum as strong as you. I bet that baby-to-be is doing somersaults in your belly to show how proud of you they are!!<br /><br />Hang in there, I will keep you, Brandon, Cade and baby-to-be in my prayers!!Maevehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03809093475778397477noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6957758174408171291.post-63768821666206904052009-10-24T07:47:36.526-06:002009-10-24T07:47:36.526-06:00I would be angry too. Poor boy. Hugs to you, Brie...I would be angry too. Poor boy. Hugs to you, Brie. Keep strong and pray. I'll pray for you and Cade.Arielle Bair, MSW, LSWhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05087215272280856919noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6957758174408171291.post-90204012355504934172009-10-24T04:44:04.097-06:002009-10-24T04:44:04.097-06:00uhg, I'm crying too. Children are so precious....uhg, I'm crying too. Children are so precious. Praying for sweet little Cade. xoxoCGhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05851942574351373975noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6957758174408171291.post-56204281022777097102009-10-23T22:20:06.957-06:002009-10-23T22:20:06.957-06:00Oh Brie, I am so sorry :( I can't imagine how ...Oh Brie, I am so sorry :( I can't imagine how you must feel. Cade will be okay honey, I know it. Try to hang in there. Please call if I can do anything to help out. Love you so much.Jackiehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16853384454397610125noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6957758174408171291.post-42950402059850729602009-10-23T20:08:21.249-06:002009-10-23T20:08:21.249-06:00I have to agree with Bananas. Why DIDNT they do it...I have to agree with Bananas. Why DIDNT they do it with sedation in the first place? Poor little boy AND his mommy.Alexandra Risinghttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06037472220915433875noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6957758174408171291.post-41323072730658341812009-10-23T17:20:54.829-06:002009-10-23T17:20:54.829-06:00I'm REALLY mad that they didn't do this un...I'm REALLY mad that they didn't do this under sedation in the fucking first place. This sounds like torture.<br /><br />Yes, an IV isn't FUN or anything but it's a needle, one prick (if they do it right) and it's done. And then off to happy-land the kid can go.<br /><br />Goddamn. I'm really freaking mad.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6957758174408171291.post-15312481813563138052009-10-23T16:55:02.191-06:002009-10-23T16:55:02.191-06:00Hi Brie,
After reading this, I too, started to cry...Hi Brie,<br />After reading this, I too, started to cry. I have no children so I cannot imagine what it is like to be in your position. I also have never had to face my own mortality at such a young age.<br />However, you said that you can't give Cade reassurance. I wonder why that is, because if you look at yourself, YOU are the reassurance that things will be OK. That, Cade WILL make it, just like you have. It might not be perfect, but Cade will make it. Perhaps, the reason you went through what you went through at 5 years, is so that you could give reassurance, hope, strength, to those who need it. And, when Cade is older, if he wonders what happened to him when he was younger, you will be able to tell him how strong he was, how brave he was, how he made it through, just like his momma.<br />I hope I'm not sounding too preach-y or contrived or...I dunno. I don't mean this in any offensive or bad way.<br />Take Care, Brie. Your family, and you, will be in my thoughts.heatherhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15213003451979142295noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6957758174408171291.post-31393205048039117612009-10-23T16:34:50.256-06:002009-10-23T16:34:50.256-06:00You know when you see a movie, and an emotional sc...You know when you see a movie, and an emotional scene pops up out of nowhere, and for some reason you empathize with the character...and you experience that state of catharsis? <br />That's what reading this was like. My emotions took a ride with you. I am so, so sorry poor Cade has to go through this, and that you, as his mother have to watch him go through this. <br />I wish there was a magic wand to give you, truly I do.Alexandra Risinghttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06037472220915433875noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6957758174408171291.post-84673522421917105692009-10-23T15:26:14.272-06:002009-10-23T15:26:14.272-06:00this must be an awful feeling. not having childre...this must be an awful feeling. not having children i can't really related, but i can imagine (i sound a little too "anne of green gables," don't i?). i am so sorry!edenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13740761957547793058noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6957758174408171291.post-11586546454410544132009-10-23T15:16:22.876-06:002009-10-23T15:16:22.876-06:00oh goodness, how horrible! No words can express ho...oh goodness, how horrible! No words can express how sad reading that made me. <br /><br />I contemplated even suggesting this, because I almost feel like its stating the obvious, but have you thought of receiving a blessing? One for you and for your little man. It doesnt always make it all better, but at least you can have some reassurance from the big man upstairs :)Shannonhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02673459282276231731noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6957758174408171291.post-6371429052227258462009-10-23T14:57:59.880-06:002009-10-23T14:57:59.880-06:00Brie, I am so so sorry to hear this. I love Cade s...Brie, I am so so sorry to hear this. I love Cade so much and I just started crying when I read this. It would be so scary and horrible to have to go through this from any perspective. I'm sorry for you and Cade and Brandon. I think maybe it's okay to feel angry about that, and helpless because I know that I sure would and anyone who tried to tell me otherwise would get their head bitten off. <br /><br />I love you, and know that I am thinking about you and your fam all the time. I believe in you and I believe that you'll get through this! I love you!Marissahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17811537471848041179noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6957758174408171291.post-79408713709339542882009-10-23T14:44:58.629-06:002009-10-23T14:44:58.629-06:00I'm so sorry! I'm crying just reading this...I'm so sorry! I'm crying just reading this. I hope they find what they need!Michellehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17751550716086106621noreply@blogger.com