Thursday, April 15, 2010

You say hello, I say goodbye

For 2 ½ years, since Blogxygen’s birth,
I have laughed and cried with you.
I have bitched and moaned and celebrated my successes.
I have been sick and almost died and come back. I have found life.
I have found beauty in life.
I have made friends that I’ll have for a lifetime.
I have learned that I am not alone.  Never.
I have learned that I am good.
I have suffered the death of my daughter.
I have found peace in her passing.
I’ve regaled you with silly
tube and treatment stories.
and
stories about my man and my man-child.
I’ve rekindled my passion for writing.
I have discovered the true meaning of
recovery
from an eating disorder and
What it really takes.
Blogxygen saved me.
But it’s time for me to
Save myself.
So.
I’ll be around.
but Blogxygen may be taking
breaths few and far in between
for awhile
while I
finally
finally
take my first, real
deep breath.
On my own.
So.
Here goes.
Peace.

33 comments:

belinda said...

your courage really is inspiring.
thank you for sharing your journey thus far with us. we will miss you but be happy that you are doing this.
x

Lindsay said...

We'll all miss you, but congratulations! :)

Tylaine said...

Dear sweet Brie,
We will miss you but are so very happy you are doing this for yourself! YOU always do what YOU need to do for YOU!
P.S You look so....(I won't say the H word :)) extremely beautiful and happy in this picture :)

eden said...

i'm sad we won't be hearing from you as much, but so happy that things are going well. congrats, and keep it up!

Shannon said...

This makes me happy and sad all at the same time! Isnt it funny how you can know someone, but not really know them? I have loved getting to know you through your blog. Maybe one day we shall meet (again[hopefully at Red Robin...mmm...fries]) but I am happy you are taking some time to yourself! Hope to see a random blog every now and again from ya!

tawny said...

Love your words.

You are always so good at expressing yourself.

BUT

one but.

I need ya girl. No stopping for good because my connection to you is our bloggy's! In less than a month I will venture new roads too!
Take a break, but come back! I need you! love your hotty pic!....xo

Arielle Bair, MSW, LSW said...

Good luck, Brie!

Amber said...

I am so happy for you but will miss your ever so funny stories. Luckily I still see you every day. You are a great sis and I love you, we are all so proud of you and all you have accomplished! Your the best. Love ya

Laur said...

good for you, i hope i can see you at the pool this summer tho? yes? it is simply crucial. you are GREAT.

t. said...

i wish you all the best, brie. may life bring you oodles o' happiness. <3

i love bows:) said...

nice one brie!good luck:) vics x

Laura said...

life after blogging....love it....right there with ya....

Suze said...

Go do you. Be brave and reckless. It makes life worth savoring. <3

Sarah at Journeying With Him said...

I'll be back anytime you post and love every word you have shared with us. We are all rooting for you!! Thanks for every laugh and realization you have given me along the way. Your blog was the first one I ever found about eating disorders and reading it for months finally gave me the courage to put words to my own experiences. I'll never forget your encouraging email at the beginning of my blogging journey; it gave me the "pat on the back" I needed to continue blogging. Thanks so much, Brie!

Anonymous said...

way to go chick- your an idol i swear. i think unblogging yourself from the internet world is a definite step in the end of recovery. awesome for you to realize and do!!!! your journey was most helpful for me personally. i wish you the best!

Mary said...
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Mary said...

Noooooooo fair........so many people actually know you and get to see you and still talk to you. I only know you through this silly blog world and every day it makes me inspired. That said, I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU! It reminds me of a sweet little one that no longer needs to hold on to a parents fingers to walk. (hopefully that makes sense) You have come so far and made incredible progress. I can't wait for your book. Please don't forget us and I assure you that we will never forget you. You said it best...peace.

tracy said...

Ahhhhhh, damn.

Take care of yourself, Brie. i'm starting to cry as i write this. i'll miss you more than you will e v e r know.

Bye.

Em said...

Hey- thanks for blogging. It's helped me get to know you, and myself, a lot better. It takes guts to share yourself with the world as honestly as you've done, and I admire you for that. Whatever you focus on next, I know you will give it the same energy, courage, honesty,and wit you've given us in your blog. Love you

Anonymous said...

you are a warm, wonderful, CHARISMATIC person, even through the computer screen. I'm glad to have had a chance to 'know' you and to be inspired by you. I will look forward to whenever you decide to write and update here. Good luck in everything and keep fighting. It'll help keep me motivated to know that you're fighting too and that maybe *i* can find succeess like you and a reason to push for recovery.

tia @ dietcolagirl.blogspot.com

Wandering Awry said...

We will miss you!

CG said...

mmmwah.

Steph said...

Good for you Brie! I'll certainly miss reading your beautiful/inspiring and incredibly hilarious posts but wish you all the best in your recovery. It's refreshing to read about positive things in this world instead of a lot of the negativity that unfortunately surrounds us. Your blog inspires and touches so many. Come back when you can. Until then we'll be sending wonderful wishes your way.

Alexandra Rising said...

But-but-will you still email or text or...be awesome Brie in my life? Cause I dont live in Utah...unless they send me to CFC but being a vegetarian I dont think that will happen...so you are rather far away!

Im so happy you're happy :D With awesome earrings to boot!
I shall want to chat with you...some time! [And I will miss your witty banter, of course!]

Tiptoe said...

It's been lovely to see you grow through your blog. You've been honest and real and shown so much of yourself here. Many people will miss you, but so many of us cheer you on as you take your first real deep breath.

And we'll all be waiting for your book to come out!

Take care, Brie. I like to think you've gained your wings to fly.

Krista said...

You will me missed much! I have loved and literally been addicted to reading your blog. I am happy for you and your new found freedom. I will always be here reading any updates and wishing you the best in life. You are one AMAZING woman!

sona said...

brie...sigh, i will miss your blogs but recovery IS much more important, THANK YOU for sharing soooo much with us it has truly been a blessing.

TAKE CARE AND RECOVER MISSY!!
you can do it!


XXXX

Sarah said...

Brie, you will definitely be missed! I am so happy for you though as you start this new chapter in your life. Recovery first!

Sheryl said...

Brie, you are seriously SO DAMN INCREDIBLE!! I heart you and your journey :) I am proud of you. Yes, I am selfish in that I LOOOOVED reading every little word you wrote, but I am sure you will write more again in the future, whether it is here or in another venue (let us all know so we can buy, or be present, or whatev). I am in awe over the strength and courage that people show amidst difficult times... and girl - you top my list. *HUGS*

Stacy said...

I miss you and your blogging. I hope everything is going well. I do have a request as a long time reader... please let us know when you are growing yet another precious baby... I think of you and hope you are smiling.

xoxo.

Jackie said...

Okay, not going to lie....I miss your blog! I understand why you needed to and wanted to take a break but I miss your guts. At least e-mail me woman! :) Hope you are doing well. xoxo

Brittany said...

I have been reading for your blog for quite awhile and Im so happy you are doing this for yourself but like jackie i miss your blog! maybe a tiny little update?!

Kerri said...

Okay... time to come back now! :)